I am not
what anyone would call a religious man. Sure there have been times in my life
when prayer seemed like a good idea and times when I would gladly have made a
deal with the devil.
For a
number of years I went to church on a regular basis, listened to the sermons
and afterwards I would mill around talking to the other parishioners drinking
that horrible church coffee. I did some odd jobs around the church and was in a
Christmas play once. That didn’t mean that I believed any stronger then than I
had in the past, I just needed the sense of belonging at that time in my life.
I tell myself that I wanted the kids to have a solid knowledge base so that
when they decided that religion was bunk they knew what they were talking about.
Well, as
much as anyone can “know” about religion.
Sometimes
I envy those who have a very strong belief in a loving God and rewards in the
afterlife. When I was working as a mailman, I wore a uniform to work and every
day I knew just what clothes I had to put on. Uniforms take that early morning
decision making of what to wear away from you and protect you from the wagging
tongues about your choice in fashion. It would be wonderful to wake up every
morning and KNOW that you had a place reserved for you at the right or left
hand of God.
Religion
is based on belief and belief is not an iron clad certainty so no one can be
sure that they will end up in whatever version of heaven they happen to believe
in.
My faith
seems to alter almost every time I really start to think about it. Not a lot
you understand but enough to keep it fluid. The basic precepts remain the same,
be nice to people if I can, try to do the right thing in any given situation,
do my best to leave this world just a little better than it was when I arrived.
The last one is tough because it is difficult to make even a tiny change. I
think I will have to hope that the people I have chosen to surround myself with
during my life will have learned something from me that improves them and their
world. It is likely that what they learn is what not to do, but that works for
me.
I hope
that when you read this you are having a good day and try to make someone smile
if you can.