It's Sunday night and once again I have put off the blog. I just started and rejected two ideas that would be just too involved to write in the time I have to spend. They were both pretty depressing ideas anyways.
Every now and then I have a black cloud that tries to control the way I live my life. It's a constant battle, but lucky for me I have a short attention span. I don't know if I am a happy guy that gets depressed every now and then or if I am a depressed guy that is pretty successful at fighting it off.
One of the things I can't decide is if I am lying more to myself or to other people. I suspect the other people are the ones that get lied to more often. I honestly don't know what is real and what is pretend most of the time.
I talk almost constantly which prevents me from thinking. You would think that the two go together like wind and blow, but with practice you can talk and talk, while your brain is an observer. That brain has opinions that don't always mesh with what everyone else seems to think. They are wrong of course, but seem to be unwilling to admit it.
Sleep beckons and with sleep comes quiet of mouth and mind. Perhaps my psyche is at peace during REM and those dreams become reality while reality fades and fades.
See you tomorrow...
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